I think that part of the problem is that in this immensely pussified and litigious society, group initiations come with aN obvious safety net. Therefore, as much as one might want to surrender to the ritual, there is knowledge that the outcome is certain, a foregone conclusion. This mitigates the shock of the ritual, and I think reduces it to an intellectual exercise - and that is exactly what a Beamtenherrschaft-phase culture needs to kick, and it’s definitely what that I believe I need to short circuit to get through this hump. As the saying goes, I’m finding that I’m all brains and no balls.
I’ve had Initiation-in-life - What I think I’m looking for a re-activation, passion, and emotional involvement with being. Somehow, I’ve ended up in this Hegelian/Kantian intellectual trap, and lost track of Dasein and Dao.
I’m going to take a look at the Alli tonight- I’m not sure I’ve ever read it, though I’ve had the file for quite a long time.
IAO, FYI, is a notariqon for, among other things, Isis-Apophis-Osiris. In terms of Initiation, it seems an effective shorthand for a 3 phase cycle of “Shiny!”- “ah, fuck it.” - “Yeehaw! I got it!”. I’m currently digging my way out of the Apophosian phase of the cycle. This one seems a bit protracted to me, and Chapel Perilous is manifesting as a lack of intuition on where to head from here In order to dig out as quickly as possible.
The QBListic dialog is still ongoing, but it feels like a monologue for the moment. This will change, eventually, but I’ve been reflecting rather much on my past, and seeing a lot of unpleasant crap. I sense there’s a יוֹם כִּפּוּר of some sort in my near future, and I’m wondering whether I should rush forward to meet it, or let it come to me in it’s own damn time.
Anyhow. Enough maudlin crap…
All is Sorrow, All is Joy: yes, but only after coffee.
More Cinnamon, less nutmeg.
I think that part of the problem is that in this immensely pussified and litigious society, group initiations come with aN obvious safety net. Therefore, as much as one might want to surrender to the ritual, there is knowledge that the outcome is certain, a foregone conclusion. This mitigates the shock of the ritual, and I think reduces it to an intellectual exercise - and that is exactly what a Beamtenherrschaft-phase culture needs to kick, and it’s definitely what that I believe I need to short circuit to get through this hump. As the saying goes, I’m finding that I’m all brains and no balls.
I’ve had Initiation-in-life - What I think I’m looking for a re-activation, passion, and emotional involvement with being. Somehow, I’ve ended up in this Hegelian/Kantian intellectual trap, and lost track of Dasein and Dao.
I’m going to take a look at the Alli tonight- I’m not sure I’ve ever read it, though I’ve had the file for quite a long time.
IAO, FYI, is a notariqon for, among other things, Isis-Apophis-Osiris. In terms of Initiation, it seems an effective shorthand for a 3 phase cycle of “Shiny!”- “ah, fuck it.” - “Yeehaw! I got it!”. I’m currently digging my way out of the Apophosian phase of the cycle. This one seems a bit protracted to me, and Chapel Perilous is manifesting as a lack of intuition on where to head from here In order to dig out as quickly as possible.
The QBListic dialog is still ongoing, but it feels like a monologue for the moment. This will change, eventually, but I’ve been reflecting rather much on my past, and seeing a lot of unpleasant crap. I sense there’s a יוֹם כִּפּוּר of some sort in my near future, and I’m wondering whether I should rush forward to meet it, or let it come to me in it’s own damn time.
Anyhow. Enough maudlin crap…
All is Sorrow, All is Joy: yes, but only after coffee.